Is My Life Serene
The day draws to its end
and I’ve made it yet again.
Another day clean,
but is my life serene?
I live one day at a time,
from month to month and check to check,
Always wondering what can I do
to help my family make it through.
I fret and I worry with really no need
Because I know if we just stay within our means
We will always succeed.
You see, I’m blessed in that my income is [somewhat] secure,
but I guess it’s just human nature that I’m always wanting more.
Not anything truly extravagant, mind you, but little things…
I’m sure you know what I’m saying.
I want my children to have everything that I didn’t
and if I did have "it" I want them to have it better.
It doesn’t have to be name brand, or fancy,
or perfect, or "just what I wanted to the letter".
Just little things……you know?
Like a pool for the kiddies.
Not an indoor, in-ground, heated, olympic size pool,
but one of those ones they sell at ChinaLand (aka WallyWorld).
Or how about a swingset?
Not a Gorilla or Rainbow swingset, but one off Craigslist.
Heck, I had to search and search for weeks
before I found one I could afford
and just when I saved the money to buy it
ChinaLand finally came on board.
In the middle of summer
they deemed the season over
and put all related items on sale.
And now that the season is actually over
and I’m putting away that pool
I look around the garage and I must pause and exhale.
I see the walls lined with shelves
full of toys and stuff and things
I wonder what was I thinking when I bought them,
What joy did I think they’d bring.
I simply can’t remember now
Why it seemed so important then.
So, I quietly contemplate while I fold that pool
all the many blessings bestowed on this old fool.
I have a beautiful, healthy family and a husband that provides.
For fourteen years now he & I have stood by each others sides.
There has been good and bad,
and sickness and health,
and we’ve been richer and poorer,
but our true wealth……
Well, I suppose that lies in the ties that bind us together
Our children, our memories, the future we will weather.
And when I look at it that way
And when I remember to let go and let God
I can see that it’s all okay
And it isn’t really all that hard.
I’ve made it through another day clean
And yes my life is serene.
by Christine C. (me) 09/08/2010
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